Dear Caleb & Joshua,
Today is June 19, 2020. A major shift has been happening in the world. At the ages of 10 & 8, you have seen unarmed black men murdered all of your tender lives. That is not the narrative you should be exposed to. Your ancestors were royal. Your lineage is strong. Your intelligence unmatched. I NEVER want you to forget that is your history.
You are surrounded by so much love, it blows my mind. Your family is OBSESSED with you. Your grandparents adore you. Your aunts and uncles cherish you. Your parents can be a little overprotective. You know why right? It is sad that at your ages, we have already had to tell you once you leave the bubble of love at home, the world will TRY to break you. I pray that the changes you are seeing happen right now, will last forever. I pray that when you grow up and have kids, this fear I have for you, they will only have to read about in books.
I am scared for you. Not for anything you will do. But just the mere fact that you all will undoubtedly be well over six feet tall, is a threat to some. Your beautiful cocoa skin that is a mixture of your Daddy’s beautiful chocolate melanin and my caramel swirl, is prepossessing. Do you hear me? YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Caleb, your willingness to learn and always ask questions is a virtue I wish I had. Joshua, the way your brain works so quickly astonishes me. I am honored to be your Mom. Truly.
As your mom, I constantly battle with the thoughts in my head on whether we are traumatizing you or keeping you informed. Dear God, there is no manual to parenting. Furthermore, there is no manual to parenting black children in America. I thank God for your lives everyday, I know you are both destined for greatness. I know we have equipped you to conquer anything that comes your way. The revolution is being streamed all over the world for you to witness. Keep asking questions, keep the brain spinning.
I love you. You are worthy of everything this life has to offer and more. My prayers are a little different now. A bit stronger and more frequent. Your blessings will manifest ten fold, I am here for you in any capacity.
We will be okay,
I recorded the below video on June 4, 2020 to appear on a talk show. They didn’t use my video, but I wanted it to have a home online. What better place than my blog? I hope the emotions conveyed in this video pass soon. Thank you so much for reading, I hope you all are well.