What a title for someone who is adamant about not having any more children right? But I had come to a point where I just wanted total control of my body and moods….again. I have been on birth control steadily since Joshua was 6 weeks old, he will be 9 on the 31st of August. They started me on a low-dose option first, since I wanted to breastfeed. (I breastfed him for 11 months exclusively). And then I was on all different kinds of pills after that. I stopped taking the pills in January of 2020. Last month, the man that lives in the White House decided that employers no longer had to cover birth control for their employees. He’s on a roll this year 🙄.
Let’s get a little personal. Birth control pills tend to give you a very low sex-drive. Mine was practically non-existent. Being married for 11 years, sex is important to keep the fire burning as they say. We still do our thing, but it wasn’t always something I was in the “mood” for. Speaking of moods, I felt like I was depressed and anxious, which after some research, can be side-effects of the pill. The depression really got to me, some days I wouldn’t even want to get out of bed. I never knew how much the pills would impact my body, I just knew that after having two kids 22 months apart, I didn’t want anymore, any time soon. The doctors didn’t tell me any of this either. Oh, you want pills, here you go. My mental health never came up in conversation at any follow-up appointments after. Just routine check-ups and refills wrote for me. Why isn’t a deeper conversation had about these effects on women?
While on the pill, I noticed that my monthly visitor came with debilitating headaches. The day before my cycle would start, the headaches would completely lay me out and I would just be useless to the kids and everyone. My OB/GYN said there wasn’t really anything they can do while I stayed on the pill. It is a very powerless feeling to have. I also had extremely painful cramps on the first day and an extremely heavy flow. I thought the pill was supposed to lessen these types of symptoms, not for me.
As a Scorpio, I am already a typically moody person. On the pill, I noticed that I was moodier, can you imagine? I was irritable and easily set off. It’s not the kind of energy I wanted to keep in my home. Especially for the kids. I would snap for things that were so minute and would feel terrible about it after. I have noticed a drastic change in all things mentioned above, once I stopped taking the pill. I feel so much better on my cycle, the cramps and headaches have damn near disappeared. The heaviness I used to experience has lightened up significantly.
At the end of the day, I am a firm believer in a woman having control of her body. It seems like society and the government is always policing our choices, our access to healthcare, and more. I made this decision for ME. I didn’t like how I was feeling, my well-being is MY number one priority. With my diet and lifestyle, it also just made sense to not put synthetic hormones in my body anymore. I mean I’m the person who doesn’t take headache meds or any type of medicine at all. I have a visit scheduled with my OB/GYN at the end of this month, I can’t wait to hear her reaction to this news!
Please share your birth control experiences below, I am curious to know the effects it has had on your body and how you cope with it all. Thank you so much for reading, stay chic, and stay safe!